r/stims
We all know how shity life can be sometimes, it get's hard, and sometimes it's normal to think about giving up. And as stimulant user's we all sometimes experience very dark places, especially when we're coming down. If you are struggling with suicidal thoughts, please take a step back from acting on them for a moment, and try reaching out for some help. I have compiled some resources here for people to use. Please at least give them a try before doing anything drastic. I guarantee even though it might not feel like it, there is someone out there who loves you. There is a sub here on reddit you can check out r/suicidewatch otherwise here are other resources you might find helpful
Other US resources:
1-866-488-7366 - Trevor Project
1-866-488 7386 - Addiction Hotline
1-888-640-5174 - Depression Hotline
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 (TALK) Veterans press 1 to reach specialized support.
Online Chat: http://chat.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/GetHelp/LifelineChat.aspx
Crisis Text Line: Text START to 741-741
Here are the suicide hotline numbers for some of the major countries, and if your country is not listed here, please check out https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_suicide_crisis_lines
Australia- 000 is the Emergency number and this link provides 24 hour suicide prevention and mental health support https://www.lifeline.org.au/
Canada-911 is the national Emergency number and this link provides crisis intervention nation wide http://www.crisisservicescanada.ca/
Germany-112 is the nation Emergency number and this link provides crisis prevention services http://www.telefonseelsorge.de/
United Kingdom-999 and 112 are the national emergency numbers and 111 is the National Health Services' First Response Service for mental health crises and support.
If your country is not listed, please check the wiki link I included, it contains resources for other countries. Please know that things can improve, and you are not alone. Please be safe everyone.
There are some great stim related subs out there, dont forget about them!
Check em out and give them a join! Be safe and drink some fucking water.
why does it happen? and why do i never seem to feel compeled to do it? ive done stims a bunch and ive never wanted to/felt the need to do anything like that, it just never crossses my mind to and if it does, it just doesnt seem interesting enough to do. does anyone else just not turn into a feral horndog on stims lol?
Was up 2 days of a crack binge spent 500 on that then I witnessed the traumatic death of my dog, my pitbull decapitated it in my girlfriends lap, both dogs are gone now, spent every last dollar in my acct on more crack smoked all that then got a ball of meth and stayed up for 5 more days getting high locked away in my room. Binge over life is hitting me in the face, I am grieving, detoxing and having to go back to work…anybody have any traumatic experiences like this on a binge?
Alright so phenibut is a good addiction right. Gets me horny as fuck by itself
Cialis of course, basic
What else?
Horniest stim is mephedrone for me but I dont have it around. Other suggestions? Any dose and/or dosing suggestions?
Overall, cleaner feeling vyvanse. Takes about the same time to hit, peaks harder and faster, staggering seems very effective unlike vyvanse.
Absolutely a recreational stim( and a good one at that!) and I've been pretty cautious with my dosing schedule today. Onloaded 60mg about 14 hours ago, then 30mgs a few hours later followed by another 30, with my last dose being 60mg a few mins ago.
For reference, my vyvanse schedule is onloading 150mg followed by 120mg or so every 12-14 hours - this is fairly comparable.
Doesn't give you the vyvanse piss debuff though, and there's definitely a unique feeling here from the 4-hydroxyclobenzorex. You also don't feel that "cold on the outside hot on the inside" feeling of typical amphetamines, likely due to the vasodilation this compound possesses.
Overall, the Jeff Bezos speed is a worthy psychostim. YMMV depending on genetic CYP enzyme quirks however.
I have (crippling) ADHD and have to take 10mg dexamphetamine twice a day as prescribed to study and occasionally 30-40mg vyvanse if the dex isnt enough.
Recently I have started to ponder how neurotoxic this stuff is, I really value being able to think with a very clear crisp head, and being able to have very deep thought, so the idea of killing braincells and limiting my cognitive capacity terrifies me.
I find it very hard to justify permanently limiting my cognitive function just to get higher college grades. Is what I'm doing that bad? I always stick to my doses and I'm not really doing it recreationally, any day that I can skip I skip immediately. I'm just really worried I will limit my brain function as I am very happy with my sober brain and what I can achieve with it
i found some 60 mg jornay extended release pills and ive tried crushinf the beads then snorting and ive tried orally. orally wasnt shit im wondering if sublingual would be better than snorting?
I have never seen anyone with this side effect that i have. Whenever i take Vyvanse, it headshots my appetite, but it ALSO kills my desire to drink water. It’s a little less potent than the suppression of appetite, but it is still freaking strong.
Is this normal?
Please give me a link or help me to buy some adderal or vyvanse plszz
I need some help. I’ll preface by saying I am in no way anxious or uncomfortable. I’m in that phase of the binge where I’m feeling retarded. Can’t think. I know for certain, however, the embarrassment that I feel for the following: i have been sitting in my chair playing Minecraft for almost 20 hours straight. Only drinking water and a couples bites. I’m self-aware enough to know that I’m not special and I’ve read my fair share of post binge despair on here.
But anyway, I literally don’t know what I should do. I mean, should I go for a walk? Should I stretch? Should I pop a couple more pills? (I know) should I take a vitamin? You know what I’m saying?
What meds in the UK cause most euphoria? I can't get Adderall in the uk.
I have ADHD and depressive episodes. I was prescribed Medikinet on 5mg, twice daily (IR or XL, I don't know as it doesn't say), and it was supposed to not just help my ADHD but lift my mood in the episodes where I would be extremely sad. It doesn't help a bit, and I don't think I'm any happier on them. I want to discuss this with my Psychiatrist but first I want to know what stimulant medication (brand name now not just amphetamine or methylphenidate) actually causes the most euphoria, or what the top 5 euphoria-causing meds are. I'm stuck, and unhappy, and I still feel down on them.
can i take benzedrex on ssris and abilify? both low doses thanks
BACKGROUND: i worked at a very shitty sonic where even my manager would share that he does meth somewhat frequently and he was like 60yrs old but kinda cool- anyways, fast forward a year of working there, the hires were usually dogshit but there was this new guys ,who im gonna name “stone,” and after stone got hired, i put in my two weeks a month later and quit.
id still go to sonic, after i quit, for free food cause they fucked with me. and after a few weeks of being unemployed i pulled up and started chatting with stone. i told him that ive been wanting to try drugs and he asked if i wanted to try crack and i was like “fuck it lets go” The thing about stone tho.. his parents knew he was an addict or sum cause they’d lock his phone so he wouldnt be able to use it after 7:30pm (remember this cuz i end up suffering). so id say its about 9:30pm and stone’s dad pulls up to pick him up. we tell him that stone’s gonna work till 12am and that id drop him off home once he gets off. and boom! the plan was made.
GETTING THE CRACK: its about 10:30pm we pull up to the dealers spot, which is some apartment in the ghetto side of downtown. stone goes in to grab the crack and comes back 5min later telling me they having a party. and im thinking that dont sound like a bad idea so i tell him
“u think we can party w them”
stone: “nah they lowkey dangerous”
[some talking]
and we ended up deciding that after smoking the crack, we were gonna go inside n chill. so boom! we got the crack n we gotta plan.
TRYING THE CRACK: stone packs his metal pipe with crack and shows me how to smoke it and ngl i wasnt catching anything so i hit it, but i hit it wrong i guess, and i aint feel nothing but a burnt lip. he told me some tips and refined my smoke method. i hit it again. i hold the smoke for like damn near 30 seconds. i exhale. i get a light head rush. and i can feel it. like suddenly im happy and energetic and i pass it to him so he can smoke it. as hes smoking it i play some music in the car and specifically “rings of saturn” - TOPS. after i put on the music he passes the pipe back to me— mind u, only a minute or two passed from that first good hit— i hit it again, still using the refined smoking technique stone showed me.
AND HOLY SHIT once i exhaled after holding it in for 30 seconds again. it was genuinely PURE EUPHORIA. i handed the pipe over to stone and i just started breathing DEEPLY. deep breathe after deep breathe, each one just SO refreshing. i clamp my hands together and stretch out my arms cause its just so much euphoria and genuine happiness that you COULD NEVER GET FROM ANYTHING. i slide my hands from my thighs down to my calves and dig my nails into my skin, through my sweatpants, and scratch upwards in one long stroke and clench my sweatpants. the feeling is so good you just want to curl into a ball. i couldnt believe how good it was to actually be alive.
THE PARTY: so boom! i. am. HIGH! we go into the plugs apartment to chill for the “party”. he lives on the second floor so as im coming up the stairs i see this guys foot, and i look a little higher and i see he has a ankle monitor and immediately i realize what im actually doing.
“you’re going into a crack dealers apartment in the ghetto, with ppl you dont know, the guy you smoked the crack with is like 6’5 20yo (im 5’7 18yo) and may be an addict.” so i lock in and tell myself not to do nothing ignorant.
now once im up the stairs, stone introduces me to the plug who was wearing the ankle monitor and his nickname was black. and ofc he was black, he was about 5’9 250lbs, big beer belly, wore a white wife beater, and i think he was nigerian. black is just chilling outside leaning on the railing with the apartment door open and a big speaker playing music from inside.
I follow stone into the apartment and as soon as i enter i see a hallway that leads to some rooms, i look to the left and see two teenage kids. their sitting on a L shaped sofa that sits on the northwest corner of the living room as soon as u enter. their faces are just stuffed in their phones. i look to the right and i just see 3 guns on the bar of the kitchen. stone walks in and turns to the right and on the southeast corner of the living room (opposite of the L shaped sofa) is this 3 seater brown sofa. i sit on the left, stone sits on the right.
when stone sits down he ask me for my phone (cuz his phones locked, remember?) and stone starts playing music from my phone to black’s speaker. but stone doesnt just give me back my phone, he holds that mtf and keeps it unlocked. and i didnt wanna tip the big guy off cuz hed slam my ass so i js let him keep it for a bit to keep him happy. then black comes inside and passes me the blunt, and prior to this i hadnt smoked in like a month so the weed hits me HARD.
so about 10 minutes passed. im staring at a wall outlet in front of me while im sitting on the sofa and im high as shit from the weed and the crack is leaving and im staring at the wall outlet and im seeing the rectangle shape strobing or like radiating outwards— idk i was just close to greening out— and stone still has my phone but his demeanor changed after hitting the blunt. he’s silent and anxious and on his feet looking out for ppl. and i think he was suspicious of me for sum reason cuz he wasnt saying anything when i was tryna talk to him. he was hyperfocused or sum. and id ask for my phone back but he was just ignoring me and stayed hyperfocused . all of a sudden, he stands up and starts marching. marches 5 steps into the kitchen, turns around and marches 5 steps back and repeats that for a bit. one of the teenage boys on the other sofa looks up and sees stone start tweaking and he starts laughing. i js get second hand embarrassment.
then finally stone throws my phone onto the couch and goes outside, downstairs and starts running in a random direction.
i run after him and bring him to my car. and here i shouldve just abandoned his ass, but im not heartless, so i start driving towards the side we live on which was like 25min and on the way there stone starts looking for something and going on a mission to find something that he doesnt even know what hes trying to find.
so i see hes tweaking and i ask for his address to drop him off home and he thinks im tryna be shady and says “nah thats weird i dont trust that” and i think to myself IM SO FUCKED. i got a crackhead tweaking in my car, suspicious about me, and could very well beat my ass and jack my car
so i go to a park nearby sonic and i try helping him find what hes tryna find, then the mtf says “no we can’t be here we have to go to bishop park and itll activate” so i leave the car and walk to the playground and sit at a distance while he did his thing.
the crack felt like it was all gone but i opened tiktok and ig reels and couldnt stay on a video for more than 5sec, i was anxious as shit and genuinely worried for my wellbeing. i look at the time n next thing i knew it, it was 3:30am, but stone wasnt looking any smarter. at 4am he was finally doing a bit better and instead of giving me his address he was gonna tell me where to go. so as we were on the way to his house i was making sure it wasnt towards bishop park where he wanted his bullshit to activate. but nah, i was finally able to drop him off
next days later he would text me saying he couldnt make it through the work shift and needed to smoke some crack to get through. i blocked him and never touched that drug again. but trust me, i WANTED to touch that drug again i REALLY FUCKING DID but i didnt cuz i saw first hand what that shit can really do to somebody. so if you’re ever going to do crack DO NOT TOUCH IT AGAIN THE DAY AFTER CUZ YOU WILL GET HOOKED.
if you actually read all this. thank you and i apologize if my story telling is dookie.
Im a recovering addict and about a week ago I had a relapse on amphetamine (the european paste kind not methamphetamine) and binged a couple days, now my 50mg vyvanse has no effects anymore should I do a break from vyvanse or will the effects come back after being sober for a peroid of time and sleeping and eating right?
Never used it but started with Nep and then got to mdphp now i am struggling, could get 5x apcyp for way less than my mdphp, BUT could get APIHP for about 180 for 10. is this stuff really so much better? Always wanted to try it but im not sure if i want to spend that much more. I always do a vape liquid, could you help me
To start, i have inattentive ADHD. Im not sure if thats super relevant but ill leave that here just in case it is.
I have had tinnitus for as long as i can remember, its not severe, as i have taken hearing tests before when i first started worrying about the ringing (I didn't know it wasn't normal before hand), and i passed them perfectly fine. I can usually tune out the ringing when im somewhere with a lot of noise or really focused on something, but in a completely quiet place it can really start to bug me.
I just took 50mg of meth, boofed, about an hour ago and ive realized that the ringing is actually almost completely gone! I swear I have never experienced silence like this before in my life... Im wondering if anybody else can share their experience with this effect?
Pretty sure the pills I'd get are capsules. I know tablets can be pressed meth, etc, but not sure about capsules. Do they have the little beads inside like adderall xr?
None of my stimulants are actually making me euphoric like people say they do, what ones (brand names now) make you the most euphoric and at what mg?
For example Ritalin 60mg (I'm just guessing there btw)
My body is shutting down I can’t feel anything I feel so malnourished and empty. I’m beyond paranoid and I’m sitting here staring into nothing tweaking out imma end up in psychosis. My anxiety is fucked and I keep having cold sweats
Imagining using and just get the urge to fap like holy fuck
Finally putting my foot down to take the long awaited t break..
so yall tell me the moment you realized how bad it got +any tips or advice for a good tolerance break is appreciated
I used 100mg a day for 6 days, yesterday î didn’t take any and I felt fine, but today I feel like shit, slept 15 hours and I still felt exhausted, everything is boring, unmotivated. How long will this last?
I’m hooked on phetamines. If I come clean, my script is gone. I kinda wanna hold on to them, is there a good way to store them? Or
I have taken 30mg 3 times before, its great but i feel like i can do better, would 40mg be ok (i only take stims every 3rd week).
Also, are there any risks of doing it at school tomorrow as i dont start till lunchtime that day, and the day after i have some family dinner bullshit
I have extreme problems with motivation and I once read a post about someone doing a bunch of amphetamines to learn languages and that it made it really fun. I have rly bad adhd and got prescribed desoxyn when I was younger but they dont have prescribable meth sadly here.
I have also a bunch of rc stims (4-me-tmp, 3-fa, 3-fma, 3-fpm) I can use but I basically need to learn this language because you cannot imagine how awkward it feels to be here and not be able to understand anything. I can sometimes understand what people say but I feel left out of conversations and this has just made me desperate to take a bunch of stims to learn German. The only reason I am surviving is because of my boyfriend literally, who is from germany. It’s a long story why I moved here and why I haven’t learned the language yet but I kinda just feel disappointed in myself for not even learning it yet. Therefore I’m gonna try to learn this way. When I was in school I did the same thing, many many years ago and it helped me graduate.
I have some mental health issues and trauma basically I had to work on with therapists here before I could focus basically on anything else. I hope this is allowed here because it is somewhat stimulant related and I am high rn so yeah
I probably sound somewhat insane, I apologize for my insanity.
During the night I consumed .1 meth (snorted). Last line was about 5 hours ago (right now it’s 10am here) and every time I try to stand up I feel like I’m going to faint. Resting HR is around 60, but when I move to sit or stand up, it jumps to crazy numbers like 150-160. Problem is I HAVE TO MOVE in order to get water, electrolytes and something to eat. I took a 0.5 xanax approximately 2hrs after my last line. Is this just a common comedown symptom? How long until I can move and go about my day?